Sunlight shiny upon you

well..today i manyak syok cuz bro not at home..mom at pinang...dad at work..so i had the house to myself..chill i din let anyone in..not even Jeeva..haha..so...tis mng suppose go play basketball wit willy,shan and terrence one..but then it was rainin..and it rained the whole day..so mng..ntg much..

afternoon...bout 3.15 adrian lim came over..went yam cha-in..dang..v yam cha for 2 hours leh..haha..talking bout joony and church camp and stupid stuff la..haha..yea..i belanja-ed him..haha..no big la..

then evening went out again..this time wit jeev to the field..haha...damn syok..no brother to kacau..no mother around to worry bout getting caught..haha..felt lyk a free bird..

left at 5.30..went to the ally to wait for jeev..then he suddenly came from behind..haha..he fail case..he wanted to scare me frm behind..haha..fail..haha..went there..talk talk talk..feeel so nice la..can just talk..me next to him..haha...no need worry bout bro all..haha..=D...then he went to play futsul..btw..the court was freaking wet..wen joel came went to shoot hoops...then..haih..i slipped and fell..slippery ma!!haih..n just wen jo passed the ball and i was determined to score...fail case la..haih..super determine somemore..tgh semangat then fell..=.=...haih..

at bout 7.10 walked back..haha..sharma,sasi,and joel left us alone..lol..then walked..then jeev told me that he tot sasi pushed me down n wanted to go kick his ass ady..then he realized it was i sendiri slipped..==..then at the junction..haha..no need say la...overall it was a good day..till..haih..

To:
My best fren,i hope you know who you are:

I love you,and im grateful to have a fren lyk you...but just tat..haih..u constanltly tink boutdeath...i try to help you n tolerate as much as i can cause i bet this was wat u guys went thru wit me last year..and now i noe how you all feel..you are lyk..my best fren la dong..i hate seein you lyk tis..everytime i help..you listen..but the next thing is tat you forget wat i tell you n all and go bk bein emo..i don't know wat ur goin thru..and mayb if you tell me exactly y u feeling lyk tis then mayb i can help you better..if it's cuz you tink no one cares bout you then ur freaking rong ok?...in my life testimony at the pool party i said "altho it felt lyk no one in the world loved me..i KNOW that He does"...remember...that you hav us..the whole gang of us here to back you up..STOP tinking of all the negative things..i mean..life is as good as you look at it..if you look at the world a piece of pitch black and negativity..then ur life n world is gna be lyk tat...so start looking at the happy parts in life and ignore the sad parts..it's wat im doin..but hey..once again..i can only give the advises..the choice n ur doings are up to u..haih..

HELP ME!!!

Someone please help me,
The pain is unbearable,
What is wrong with me,
I feel like I'm being eaten by a cannibal,
The burn,
The pain,
I feel like running,
Dashing across with my emptiness,
I don't know whats wrong,
I don't know whats happening,
It it guilt?
Or is it the sensation to want to see you,
I'm confused,
Out of my mind,
I'm running wild,
Like something foul on the lose,
I feel like I'm slowly falling apart,
Slowly decaying....

am still feeling bad

i wish i could come up wit 50 bucks in a day la..then my problems would all be cleared..haih..i just feel lyk..haih..duno lar..if my parents pay 4 me then i dun mind..but im doin chores almost everyday..and gettin cash ltl by ltl..

clean toilet-6 bucks
Iron dad's shirt- 5bucks per piece
Sweep and mop floor-5 bucks.
wash car-5 bucks per car.
Vacuum inside of car-3 bucks

TEll me!!..how can i come up wit 50 bucks by next week? and i still owe ppl cash...haih..dear Lord..please help me...and tinking of the future is makin things worse..i just feel lyk crawling up some where..

The music plays,
Death rolls,
Searching for ways,
To make the problems go,
Trying to make it to the other side,
Where the grass is green,
But let me know which side,
Is always green?
The world blurs out,
As tears form in my eyes,
Lord hear me cry out,
My troubles to you I give up,
Ease my aching heart,
To all problems let them depart,
No longer in my system,
All go!!!

Fill me up

The sudden rush of loneliness just came,
The dark cloud has just arrived,
Why is my mind playing this kind of game,
To set my dark side revive,
How desolated I am feeling right now,
The feeling to render,
To the curse i bow,
To this feeling I surrender,
All i want to feel,
Is the warmth of your body,
All i want the taste,
Is your breath,
All I want to hear,
Is your voice whispering into my ear,
All i want to do,
Is to fly away with you,
But I feel so tied down,
Left in the sea to drown,
Someone come save me,
From this cruel entity,
Of the one thing called,
Love...

happy birthday?

well..lets just say that due to things happening and money shortage..i cant really go out much..and sunway lagoon is just too expensive for me..the entrance fee already burn hole in my pocket..the food..i tink i starve better la..if it was an outing to a mall and catching a movie..tat one i left wit 15 bucks in my pocket also i dun mind...cuz movie most is 13..the food can go buy bread to eat..but sunway..is lyk..haih..if i got an income then at least ok...i can't come up wit bout 60 bucks in less than a week...now you see y i need a job..but i 60 to 70 buckscant find any.. guys..it's not only cuz i sked my parents marah y so many times go out..and im not putting jeeva over you guys..it's just that comparing to an outing to the mall..it's much more expensive..cuz in the mall at the most u use up to 30 bucks..but sunway in total it's already bout..i just dun hav that amount of cash..and i dun wana rely on any of u...but watever it is..i'l make it up to you guys k?..=]..sry..

tear the roof down

haha..muz be wondering why put that title ryte?..haha..i also duno...just so happen got the renovation feel..haha..since im at my dad's office now and got construction goin on..haha..yea..at dad's office now..manyak bored la..haha..i also duno wat to blog about..yea..but just now on the way here i saw this cloud that looked lyk a bird..i took a pic of it..and my dad was lyk..wat u doin..told him bout the cloud he laugh only..very funny meh?..==..

now..on9..wi-fi bit cacat..hopin bi will come on9..cuz i wana try out the webcam..haha..haih..missin him now la..=[..but wat to do..mom n bro not around...so hav to follow dad..not tat im not lyking it..just tat 1 to 2 days cannot c him only ma..yea...

conclusion here is..im bored!!!!!...

rain rain go away

today mng went to play ball again la..duh..my life is practically ntg but basketball la..haha..super cacat..yea..i actually woke up at 7.45..then i slept bk..haha..woke up by willy's msg..then he called..hahaha..then went..apparently he called his fren who called his fren..n 1 of willy's fren's fren i knew....his name jason wong...smtg la..haha..then had a 4 on 4...oh..btw..carey panalty shot line SUCKS!!!!!!!...keep air balling...eeee!!!!!!!yea..anway...had an awesome game..haha..henry said i was top scorer..haha..thank you thank you..but 1 thing i realized..jason wen he lay up..i tink the sky split also he sure score one..=.=..then after that went yam cha then went to shan's house..for wat?...NAIL POLISH REMOVER!!...get rid of the black on my nails..was getting kinda annoying cuz i wanted to play the guitar but nails too long..n if i cut sure look very ugly...haha..took me one hour to get rid of it...=.=..iah...sad la..nv gna paint my nails in a very very very long time now...

afternoon..slept till willy called...said goin for b.ball in the evening..ok la..then did bit of sudoku..talking to jeev..then got ready..then told jeev tat wen he reach the ally to tell me..then i go out..BUT..it started raining..d*...haih..dun curse dun curse..at 6 it stopped..so jeev told me he goin to the ally...(i smell maggi mee now..hungry la..=[ )..then he msg-ed me wen he reached...

i walked to the ally..saw him playing wit that stupid stray dog..i dun lyk that dog..look so gila..haha..then..haha...no need go to that part la..haha..went to the court..called jo to come..he came..shot some hoops...by 6.40 it started to drizzle..so went bk..waited for jeev to come since he went mamak...so walked home..b4 i left towards my house..haha..tat's another part i no need to tell..haha..

the end

I'm not only your partner,
But you best friend,
Your counselor,
Your multi purpose wondergirl,
You can count on me whenever for whatever,
I would never abandon you.